Haha. It's 2.30 in the morning and i'm still wide awake. Gazing thru the window at the newly built expressway outside my house gave me a sense of serenity. There is a reason why i was, and am still awake. Just as when you see smoke, something was definitely burning. The night's stay was more than just something burning in the fire pit. Probably slightly more, but still more.
One logical reason for staying up late is of course to study for the next paper. And another is probably more personal, close to heart, but less substantial, at least from this point on. There is some strength emphasized in the previous sentence, if you noticed.
Sometimes it is disappointing to realize that a person tells you something and then something else happens. The question is, why bother telling? The answer would be : To please the ears that are listening. "WOW," was my reaction when i noticed that. What an answer. I really applaud those who did that.
Some like to keep secrets. They end up being ambiguous. They try to twist their words as though they were trying to screw the cork out of the champagne bottle. Some are professionals. They are quick and fast. And nasty. It's not pleasant to not learn the secrets from the secret bearer himself.
Some damages done cannot be undone. My dad always said that life is an art without an eraser. Which is quite true. If it doesn't work this way, there's sure to be another way that will work eventually. The bottomline is, look forward. Miss one, be ready for the next. Miss the next, get set for the one after next. "Life is a marathon" like what Eu-Juin said.
Well. Come to think of it, i shouldn't blame anyone for the things that had happened. Let's just say every thing is predestined. If stars belong to the day, God would have made the stars shine in the day.
If today i was destined to be late, I'm sure God had purposely made it that way because he has a better plans coming up for me. Well, some words are better left unvoiced. What use could the call 'TAXI!' be of, when the taxi has left the taxi stand? =)
Having read the bible I find that i could let go things more easily. So i have decided. And nothing would change that. Peace. =)